| Was he bare naked or a Grizzly Bear?
naked or a Grizzly Bear?
Animal Totems can bring
powerful insights and resolution to deep seated emotional issues.
I am passionate about the study
of archetypes. As a Holographic Energy Worker/Emotional Intuitive, who
"reads" the energy fields of my clients all day long, I get to witness
the most amazing archetypal patterns.
During my earlier years doing
this work, I would attract so many clients with archetypes like Ms.
Control, Mr. Know It All, Ms. Perfect, Mr.& Mrs. Tough, and Ms.
Denial of Feelings. All fascinating personality types, particularly
since these patterns resembled me so much at that time.
Growing up as the only girl,
with three brothers, in a lower middle class Catholic family I never
felt quite good enough, pretty enough or smart enough. I always felt
very different from everyone else and desperately wanted to fit in.
So, I learned how to put on
masks, which grew into my archetypal patterns. I acted like I had
everything in control, pretended that I knew what everyone was talking
about at dinner parties, and maintained a cool exterior that made me
What a joke? Nothing could have
been farther from the truth. Actually I was (and am) hypersensitive,
highly intuitive and someone who feels intensely everything around me.
As I started understanding
these patterns, more patterns came to light. The work of Medical
Intuitive and author Carolyn Myss had a huge impact on me. She spoke of
how each one of us is born with a Sacred Contract and that we each have
12 archetypal patterns to work through in this incarnation.
Ms. Myss believes that we all
must work through the Victim, the Saboteur, the Wounded Child, and the
Prostitute among others. Once we understand their beautiful lessons, we
can work their opposites, or positive aspects.
For example, the Victim teaches
us to take responsibility for our lives and to stop giving our power to
others - to be the Victor.
The Prostitute teaches us to
stop compromising our bodies, morals, ethics, time, energy and money to
get love and approval in return. Doing so enables us to become the
Lover, to love ourselves so much that we will no longer compromise our
The Saboteur teaches us to go
beyond our fears, stop sabotaging our lives and become the Magician who
makes magic and miracles; thus enabling us to finally go beyond our
pain, to forgive our past, and to learn how to play, live and love
again - freeing up our Creative Divine Child nature.
Ms. Myss' teachings had a life
changing effect on me and my work. Suddenly I could understand why I
was seeing Wounded Child archetypes with 95% of my clients and why so
many people felt victimized and sabotaged by life itself.
Almost every client that came
to see me would be taken into the past by their Higher Self, to speak
to their Wounded Child.
The Wounded Children would
choose names that they wanted to be called, and would make it very
clear to the inner adult on my table that the inner child part of them
needed love, attention, nurturing and time to play!
Over and over in my readings I
would see my clients' painful childhood experiences; situations in
which they did not get the opportunity to express their pain, feelings
of abandonment, hurt, disappointment etc. For them to heal their past
they needed to go back and make peace with that child part of them.
I will never forget the
gentleman who came to see me, not for himself, but to check me out
because he thought I was a charlatan. Let's call him Terry.
His two lovely daughters were
both clients of mine and had been seeing me quite regularly with very
positive results. He felt threatened by this and he wanted to "see my
I felt very intimidated at
first until I reminded myself that I had nothing to prove since I was
only going to share what came from his Higher Self anyway. I resolved
to just "Let go and let God."
There he lay on my Reiki table,
arms folded, looking critically at me with an attitude that said,
"Okay, what do you see?" I took a deep breath and the first impression
I got was that of a little boy, and the number eight.
The boy was balancing on a
fence, free and happy. Then, in the next moment, I got an impression of
the boy on the ground and his arm dangling, nearly ripped off from his
The third impression was of the
boy's father, dressed in a military uniform, looking at the child with
Since most of what I see is
quite symbolic or metaphorical, I asked, "Terry, have you every felt
emotionally ripped off or ripped apart by your Dad?"
Terry looked at me with wide
eyes and responded, "At age eight I fell off a fence and nearly lost my
arm. My father, who was in the military, was extremely dominating. He
was so angry that I climbed the fence that, instead of comforting me
and asking me if I was okay, he yelled at me and told me what an idiot
Suddenly a fourth impression
flew onto my screen - Terry as an angry grizzly bear. Terry had grown
up to be just like his Dad, dominating and controlling. Now I also
understood why he was so darn protective of his daughters. He never
wanted them to be hurt the way he had been hurt as a child.
This experience showed me that
each one of us has a whole collection of animal archetypes and that
each archetype has both a light and a shadow side. I also realized that
Spirit was using me as a vehicle to help people understand their true
natures and their "pure potential." As I began to study Shaman Ted
Andrews' book, Animal Speaks, I learned that each one of us is born
with animal totems or animal essences and my gift of clairvoyance
allowed me the honour of reading these, along with the myriad of other
archetypes that we develop.
As the session progressed with
Terry, I also got to see the lighter side of his Bear essence and was
able to help that wounded boy inside him to understand who he really
was before age eight. The Bear is the teacher of teachers, the shaman,
the healer, and has the ability to go within (hibernation), to name
just a few of its qualities. The insight that Terry gained from
learning about his Bear totem was that he could get what he wanted
without going into Grizzly mode.
My point in this article is
that I agree with Ms. Myss, that we signed a sacred contract and we
come into each incarnation with a cast of archetypes that will allow us
to experience our soul's evolution in the best way possible. However, I
have also concluded that there is a whole crew of animal totem aspects
to us (kind of like Noah's Ark - an inner family, or what I like to
call, "the tribe of the true self"), and that if we learn all we can
about these aspects we will better understand the dark and light sides
of our natures. This will enable us to experience life in a more
We are far more complex than
any one set of "archetypes" can express. There is so much magic inside
of us. If we pay attention to our dreams, and to the animals that cross
our paths, we can learn so much more about ourselves.
Through the study of animal
totems I have learned that I am not unworthy, undeserving and uncared
for, but that I am EAGLE, full of grace, a teacher of teachers and
creative visionary, that I am Hawk, greatest of the flyers, a messenger
to others, I am DEER, gentle, compassionate, sensitive, and kind, and
that I am BEAVER, with the power to build my dreams.